My all time favourite movie

* Jadi inget jaman waktu SD dulu... seneng banget nonton film ini. Padahal waktu itu umurku belum juga 10 tahun. Dewasa bener kayaknya. Tapi iya, entah kenapa film ini begitu membekas di pikiranku yang mungkin berpikir kalau film romantis adalah yang seperti ini. Film komedi romantis buatan tahun 1986 yang dibintangi Lidya Kandouw dan Deddy Mizwar ini bercerita tentang dua sejoli yang saling mencintai tapi kadang suka sama-sama sok jual mahal, dan walaupun akhirnya mereka menikah dan tinggal serumah, masalah demi masalah tidak luput dari kehidupan mereka. Anyway, diantara maraknya film-film vulgar murahan di jaman itu, film ini perlu diacungi jempol atas ide segar yang membuat masyarakat melihat sisi lain film Indonesia, dan juga tentunya sisi lain dari cinta dan kehidupan pernikahan.

I was wrong...

A religious man is a person who holds God and man in one thought at one time, at all times, who suffers harm done to others, whose greatest passion is compassion, whose greatest strength is love and defiance of despair. [New York Journal-American, April 5, 1963]

* Abraham Joshua Heschel


I thought that by going to the church every Sunday and some days in weekdays, pray every night, do fasting every now and then, and share my faith to friends and relatives, are enough. Then again, serving God is never enough. I really really wish to help others, that's why I work on writing a book, but I'm facing a block now so the book hasn't finished yet. Maybe I should give a hand, but how, I'm not living in here permanently. There are days that I have to be in Jakarta for work and so on. So how can I help God?

Lonely is the night

"Lonely is the night when Im not with you
Lonely is the night aint no light shining through
Till youre in my arms till youre here by my side
Lonely am I..."


* Taken from the song of Lonely is the night

** Suddenly I remember those days when I was in the Junior High. I really really loved this song, everyday when I got home from school I always had the cassette of Air Supply played in my tape deck. Then I locked my room, sang the song out loud, looked out the window... thinking about my life in the next ten or twenty years.

15 years later, early this year, when I was in Jakarta for a holiday, my father was driving and in his CD player sung this song, he said to me, "I remember when you were a teenager, you used to sing this song out loud"... Hahahaha, I was laughing bitterly... But I also was surprised that my father still remember about this song. Then what did I do in this last 15 years?

Year 1 to 5: Graduated from Junior High, High School, and was in the Diploma school.
Year 6 to 10: Graduated from Diploma, working, and was in the University for my Bachelor Degree.
Year 11 to 15: Working, graduated from University, working, moved to Singapore, was in the Master School, graduated from Master school, working, become a writer, still in Singapore.

Hope the next five years will be a lot better.

Then, how many boyfriends I have for this 15 years? HA! Hehehehehe.


"I can make it through the day
I can fake it okay
I just smile and pretend
And I tell myself I'll be alright

But lonely is the night..."

Pondok Jawa Timur

That's a new restaurant in Plaza Singapura area. Stretched in between TCC Coffee and Sakae Sushi, this restaurant off course offerring Indonesian cuisines. The first outlet is in the Far East Plaza. I took my bestfriend to the Plaza Singapura outlet for my birthday, we had four different items, and a Soda Gembira (Authentic Milk Soda from Indonesia) for her. Thank God that she can eat all the spicy things there... hehehehe. I love that place. Besides of their so-so taste for the real Indonesian like me, their smoking zone made it just perfect for me (*blink-blink*).


* Pondok Jawa Timur
Plaza Singapura Atrium Centre
Opens 11.00 AM to 10.00 PM (9.30 PM Last Order)
Phone: 63338785 (Far East Outlet)

The Lyrics - La Javanaise

J'avoue j'en ai bave pas vous mon amour

Avant d'avoir eu vent de vous mon amour

Ne vous deplaise

En dansant la Javanaise

Nous nous aimions

Le temps d'une chanson

A votre avis qu'avons-nous vu de l'amour

De vous a moi vous m'avez eu mon amour

Ne vous deplaise

En dansant la Javanaise

Nous nous aimions

Le temps d'une chanson

Helas avril en vain me voue a l'amour

J'avais envie de voir en vous cet amour

Ne vous deplaise

En dansant la Javanaise

Nous nous aimions

Le temps d'une chanson

La vie ne vaut d'etre vecue sans amour

Mais c'est vous qui l'avez voulu mon amour

Ne vous deplaise

En dansant la Javanaise

Nous nous aimions

Le temps d'une chanson

Anggun - La Javanaise

Great Song, Great Singer, Great...

I trust You

I wished and wanted something that I thought can be a good thing for me. But probably God will not think the same way. Good for me is not always the real good.

I dreamed and kept on dreaming of something that I thought will be the very best for me. But probably God will not think the same way. Best for me is not always the real best.

I prayed and kept on praying of something that I thought will be just perfect for me. But probably God will not think the same way. Perfect for me is not always the real perfect.


*) Be it, the way You want me to be, God. For I never know what will my future be, but I love You without any terms and conditions, therefore I put my trust completely in You, just in You...

Seven Days Seven Churches...

A week before my birthday on the 9th August, I had a 7 days fasting week followed by going to the 7 different churches. The reason why I did this is because I need to renew my faith and also wished for the best for the whole year.

Day 1, Sts Paul and Peter
Day 2, St. Joseph
Day 3, Cathedral of Good Shepherds
Day 4, Our Lady Star of The Sea
Day 5, Novena Church
Day 6, Church of The Holy Spirit
Day 7, Church of The Sacred Heart


All went very well. And for the 8th day, which was my birthday, I went for the National Day mass in Cathedral of Good Shepherds (well I think that's the only church that held a National Day Service). I was crying almost in the whole mass, but no one knows me (I think...).

My faith is renewed, and hopefully can be stronger than before. Although, yeah, problems and difficulties were coming without knocking... But still I know that I have God, and everything will be just fine.

A Big Fight

I think everything's over...

HUT RI ke-62

Aku hanya lelah

Aku lelah, cape, dan galau. Tampaknya tak ada seorang pun atau apapun yang dapat membuat aku kembali berseri. Tidak juga dia atau dia atau dia atau dia atau mereka. Hatiku kuncup dan tak tahu kapan akan bermekaran seperti kembang kol. Kegelisahan seperti tak mau pergi dan setia menemani hari-hariku yang memang sudah buram, muram dan kelam.

Faith

Faith is a knowledge without evidence...

Used to be my favorite song...

Lyric from LirikMania.org | Click here to find more lyric

Downtown Train

"Will I see you tonight on a downtown train?
Every night, every night its just the same
Will I see you tonight on a downtown train?
All my dreams, all my dreams fall like rain
On a downtown train..."


* Downtown train, Rod Steward

Problems, Difficulties... All come and go.

In times of difficulties, don't ever say, "God, I have a big problem" ... but say instead... "Hey problem, I have a big God and everything will be all right".


*Quoted.

Birthday...

Nothing much on my birthday. I didn't take any photos. I didn't buy any birthday cakes, tarts, or ice cream. I didn't go out to the fancy place as I used to do. Anyway, Happy Birthday to me!!!

Enchanting Indonesia