I just read one of my friends' Friendster, and on her shoutout she wrote about 'Happy Ending'. She wrote that she's making her happy ending because she's married with someone she loves.
Okay.
Maybe I'm too cynical about the words 'Happy Ending'.
But why most people always call a marriage as a solution in life? How about if the marriage doesn't last forever? Does 'Happily Ever After' really exist? How about if the spouse cheating? Or how about if the love will be gone after some years?
I'm not a person who against marriage but also not really into marriage. Actually there's no reason why I should be sensitive about this subject because my parents are happily married. Real Happy. Probably I'm just afraid if I will not last like them. Even my brother who is four years younger than me are more than ready to get married. He has his five-year-plus steady girlfriend. He already bought a house (yes, a house!!! so much for a 25 y.o man, right?) and the girlfriend already has a car. Perfect. Maybe me and my parents will contribute for the furnitures. Hahahahaha.
So, back to me. How about me? What do I have? A house? A car? Furnitures? Saving money for marriage ceremony? What I don't have is a courage to get married.
Why my brother is so ready to take a big leap of his life by getting married? Why musn't I?
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Just last nite, I was walking along Orchard Road, I promised to meet up my good friend in The Balcony Bar, Heeren, for a drink or two. I walked alone from Takashimaya to Heeren, not quite far I can say, but I saw many things during my walk. Couples, Families, Office Colleagues, Friends. And suddenly I remembered my prayers years ago, when I pictured myself walking in Orchard Road after office hour to meet friends for a drink. And I also remembered that I always pictured myself walking alone. I had never put myself in pairing with someone. Maybe I should had pictured myself walking along Orchard Road with someone, hand in hand, or with a baby stroller in his hands... ouchhhhh. Gross.
Still it's easier to see myself walking alone, with a cigarette in my finger.
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So, how about my 'Happy Ending'? Just yesterday I wrote about Pursuit of Happyness, and today I came up with this subject. What am I up to anyway?
Why I bother so much about this happy-happy-thing? I probably not happy. But I do thankful for what GOD has given to me. But I can't deny that something is missing in me. And I don't know exactly what it is.
Maybe it's my 'Happy Ending'.
