Maybe Yes, Maybe No (Part III)

Things are packed...

I'm going back to Singapore tomorrow evening. After being in Jakarta for 10days, surrounding by the warmth and love from my family, spending time with my best friends and eating those traditional foods that I cannot find in Singapore... I'm starting to miss my life here. I miss my family, the whole family of mine: my grandparents, uncles and aunties, cousins and distant cousins, I miss my best friends - I miss the times when we were chatting in a cafe or lounge - when we smoked ;-p ............ I miss completely everything.

I don't know why I feel a bit mellow tonight, maybe because it's raining heavily outside...

Things are different this time, Jakarta is smoother and friendlier.

Should I go back to Jakarta, and live here again for good? Am I ready to take all the consequences? Being surrounded with the same things, same situations, just like before... I probably won't be ready, not again, not anymore... Maybe I'm just a loser who is too afraid to face the reality in Jakarta... maybe I will never be ready to be in Jakarta again, maybe I'm too "drama-queen" for all these, maybe I am... but still, there'll always be "maybe yes and maybe no."