.:: About Love ::.

I asked my man the other day, " Do you know what love is? Why you decided to say 'I love you' to me? Why not to somebody else? If you say 'that' to me, do you mean it?"

Then suddenly he turned to me (he's working on his laptop when I popped the questions), looked me in the eye, and panic.... hahahahahhahaha.

Controlling his breathing, he asked me back, "Have you been reading something, a novel? Have you watched something romantic with your friends? Or or or... errrr... you've been reading those gossip magazines again?"

What is it about men when we ask about love? Why men have to relate "a question about love" to something that probably we have been doing before. Maybe I haven't done anything before I asked him - not a romantic movie nor a happily-ever-after novel, maybe it just came up and I spontaneously threw him the questions, maybe it was just because I need to know. Maybe it was a surprise.

And by the way, how come he can relate reading a gossip magazine to a question about love?

Seeing he mumbled and frowned his eyebrow, I even more bombarded him. "So what if you are a famous actor..... or let's say somebody famous lah (I don't really fancy actors or singers, but I do read gossips :p ) and you get this award and getting an award means you have to make a speech in front of everybody... and after you thank here and thank there, at the end you have to make a sweet closure for your speech isn't it right? So if this's your situation, would you care to mention my name and say 'I love you' at the end of your speech?"

"I don't really get it" he said.

Oh Lord, didn't I point it out so clearly?

"Look, ok, you are an actor and you receive an award, ok, an Oscar for example. Then you have to make a speech, so would you care to...."

"Ok ok ok, I get it now, I have to mention your name right? and say 'I love you' to you in front of everybody... so, it's like - "'Thank you ladies and gentlemen bla bla bla, thank you my fans and my team bla bla bla... and at the end I have to say 'Jazzy.... I love you' '", like those hollywood celebrities when they receive an award right? It's that what you wanted?" he told me and looked me in the eye - a look that forced me to admit that I've been reading at least one newest gossip magazine. (Oh, I hate if he looked at me in the eye, he has such a sharp pair of eyes).

"Well, yes... sort of..."

"But do you mean that?" I, unsatisfied with his answer, asked again.

"Mean what?" he's frowning his forehead again.

"The 'I love you' thing... saying in front of everybody..."

"Do you think I mean it or not?" he asked me back.

"I don't know", I told him honestly.

"Well, ok, I'm about to stop working and shut down my laptop, then I'll show you how much I mean it to say 'I love you' to you".

He blinked his right eye to me.

"Hmmm ok". Me speechless.

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Ohhhh bugger.